Our shadows hold the essence of who we are. They hold our most treasured gifts. By facing these aspects of ourselves, we become free to experience our glorious totality: the good and bad, the dark and the light. It is by embracing all of who we are that we earn the FREEDOM to choose what we do in this world. As long as we keep hiding, masquerading, and projecting what is inside us, we have no freedom to be and no freedom to choose.
– Debbie Ford
Lately I’ve been thinking about where it all began with my reiki journey.
And honestly it began when I was no longer comfortable being alone in my own house.
It began at my house on Gainsborough Street, Moorooka (as much as I would love to share the exact address I cannot for legal reasons).
Anyhow it was at this house that I constantly felt like something was watching me, along with that whenever I had my back turned I felt like someone was directly behind me in situations where I was clearly alone. I was very left brain in my logic at this time of my life, there had to be a logical explanation for everything. And if there wasn’t I would just ignore it.
The first day in this house was in 2010…
I had left a toxic marriage, a DV situation, I was a heartbroken mess and this house was the only place that was cheap to rent and available.
Yes it was old but it seemed ok and let’s be honest I was desperate.
So there I was doing the laundry while I had the ‘you can heal your life’ DVD by Louise Hay playing in the background…I was feeling good about the single mom life. My son was at his grandparents house from the other side so I was all ALONE, which was weird in itself but I knew I had to get use to it.
Anyway I took my basket of washing outside to hang through the back door and then realised I had forgotten my pegs so I slide the back door to open but it wouldn’t open….it was locked….
Ummm the door could only be locked from the INSIDE of the house….WTF.
So I stood outside looking in… wondering how the heck that happened….
Was the door broken??
Had to be!!! But it hadn’t locked earlier that day… so must be faulty right?
There is no other way it could lock on its own unless… the house was HAUNTED 😳
I couldn’t believe I was locked out on the first day… luckily my mom lived around the corner and I had given her a spare key.
As I stood there confused & dumbfounded I looked upstairs to find a neighbour staring right at me with disapproval. She was a young woman and her eyes were really black… it was freakish and creepy AF. Like I didn’t have enough problems at that moment. After that I walked to my moms house praying that she was home because I didn’t have my phone on me (and she was).
Over the next 12 months+ my son kept complaining about a little girl waking him up at night crying, he would often randomly say ‘oh the monsters are here’ – like they would randomly arrive.
I remember once reading him a bed time story then I left the room to get him water and came back to find him dancing… like he was holding someone’s hand and dancing in a circle, I asked him ‘what are you doing??’ And he quickly jumped into bed and said ‘nothing’ then I probed a bit more and he said he was dancing with an old woman. 😳
I kept thinking that he had been through a lot with the separation and that he must be imagining this stuff.
Fast forward to 2012 – random weird stuff was still happening at home but this is the year I came across the word Reiki.
I overheard a colleague talking about it, it got me curious about energy healing, there was something familiar about it…. a knowing… that’s where the seed was planted. 🌱
Next thing I know I’m at the stones corner shops with a close friend and we come across a pyschic store. I could never say no to a reading so in I went.
The pyschic told me that a tall man, grandad or uncle was trying to communicate with me at home but he was afraid he was scaring me. He said I had an idea about a training course and that I should follow through with it….. I told her that I was interested in Reiki, she then said there was a lady she knew that delivered training under the business name ‘enlightened Spirit’…
I told her I’d probably forget the name. That night I remembered, googled and submitted a query about the training (go me).
The next day at my corporate job (mining) I was telling my manager about the course, she told me that my colleague who sat directly opposite me was a reiki master and that I should speak to her about it.
So that I did and over lunch she immediately dived into all things spiritual. I told her that I had booked into Reiki level 1 training with enlightened spirit, she had also completed her training through the same place. I couldn’t believe it.
Was this a Coincidence??? Or divine timing!
This reassured me that I was on the right path, it was SO weird how things were lining up including my ability to even afford the training.
My reiki master colleague was truly a god send. She shared so much knowledge and offered that I visit her house for a reiki session at no cost.
We booked a time and I couldn’t believe she was offering it to me for free – was she a legit angel? That’s what it felt like.
I was actually going through a lot of financial struggle with the separation/divorce. This all seemed too good to be true and also extremely scary.
Could I let go of all control?
What if a demon comes through haha…
What if she sees all my problems and insecurities…
Can I be vulnerable like that… the fears went on and on…
In the next blog post I will share how my first reiki session went down! And I will continue the story about the hauntings.
So…. any questions?